Quick note
I was too exhausted yesterday after my session to do much of anything but sleep. Thankfully I was too exhausted to have any strange lucid / astral / out-of-body dreams.
Before the accident, I would have read something like this and thought the person should be comitted. I'm not completely convinced this isn't an option...
I was able to get the thumbs up from my physical therapist yesterday to drive again. The neurologist said that I was cleared from that side as well, so I'm going to finally get the new car. I've been checking the site out daily on the new Mazda RX-8. I was a little uncertain at first if I wanted to go with the same kind of car as before, but it was a done deal when I saw this car...
I'll be picking it up later today. Next week I'll be stopping into my broker office to meet with my manager and see about going back to work. For those of you that don't already know, I'm in the mortgage business. I've had a lot of my clients sending me cards and flowers. They apparently don't like working with my manager any more than I do. It's nice to be loved...
Dream Analysis
I’m getting ready for my physical therapy session. I have a little while to wait before I have to head out. I wanted to expand upon my message from yesterday.
I read more about lucid dreams and I’m not sure this is an applicable description. The site listed that you can control what happens in the dream and change things to be a different dream. This hasn’t been happening. The example I gave before is only one of the times I’ve had this happen.
It’s more like I have been transported somewhere else while I’m sleeping. I think the term was astral projection or an out of body experience. These descriptions don’t seem to fit all that well, but are closer than the lucid dream description.
I discovered more strange things late last night that I’m not sure how to write about yet. Sometimes I feel like I’m going crazy, or wonder if I incurred some kind of brain damage from my accident. Whatever it is, it scares me to no end.
If anyone has any ideas or experiences like this I'd really like to know. I'm flyin gblind, but at least the internet is giving me some kind of guidance.
I’ll try to write more later after my session.
Lucid Dreams
Ever since my accident I have had some of the strangest dreams of my life. What was more odd than anything about these dreams is that I’d remember them vividly as if I had actually lived through these experiences.
Here’s an example:
I’m sitting at a rough wooden table in a log cabin in the middle of the woods drinking some kind of tea from a hand-made cup. I can tell that it is hand made for the color of the dark clay that formed it and the distinct abnormalities in it that gives it the rustic look of a hand made object.
Across from me is a large fireplace with a fire burning within. A medium sized kettle was suspended above the fire emitting the scent of some kind of roasted meat. It didn’t exactly remind me of the scent of my mothers Sunday roast beef, or “Roast Beast” as my father used to call it, but similar enough to tag it so.
I turned my head to the right and notice a window with what looks like burlap tied back to let in the light of the setting sun. My head throbs from the quick change of light and I put my hand to my head where I find it wrapped tightly with some kind of cloth. The pain increases as I explore the rough bandage and realize that my injuries have followed along with me. Into my dreams…
I sat back further in the chair as the realization sinks in that I’m in a dream. I had never been in a dream where I realized that I was dreaming and then stayed in that same dream.
Upon further research, I found that this was called Lucid Dreaming. At least to a certain extent… I guess within lucid dreams you can change things and actually control your dream. Mine didn’t really seem that way to me. It was almost as if I was living a completely different life and time. I’m telling you it was weird!
I woke up after I realized that I was dreaming, but the memory sticks with me as if I had actually lived it. It hasn’t faded like most dreams do…
Starting out...
I've never kept a journal or diary before. On suggestions from others I've decided to put my recent experiences up on a blog to help deal with the situations that I've found myself in. I'll be posting more information soon.
